[So. That was it. The distance he'd felt when they left the jazz club - it was because he'd said he would protect her. And he had to admit to himself that in their early days as friends he had thought of things that way...]
Hanako... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you that night, or any time since. That's the last thing I would ever want to do. I can't lie to you... I have thought in the past that you needed some protection and help. Because you're so shy, and I wanted to be there for you to help you come out of your shell a little. I....
[He stopped, looking away and thinking for a moment.]
...but that really is in the past. That way of thinking was selfish and naive of me, and it was wrong.
[He turned to face the video feed again.]
You're right. You're not weak or a child. And I'm sorry if I ever - EVER - made you feel that way. You're very important to me.... I'm not pretending and I want you to understand that.
[Hanako listens to everything from the audio, so he can't see the expressions she's having, and the tears that slowly reappear in her eyes.
What he says at the beginning hurts, it pierces her from the inside, but she knew that. She knew that he was being like everyone else, that he, too, thought of her as a weakling. And pretty much his statement only confirms what she'd feared at that time.
But it changed. Overtime, he did change. What he says next makes it true. He's sorry for it, he understands. Hisao understands.
She tries to wipe her tears with her hands, but that proves hard. She can't stop crying.]
I'm sorry Hisao, I--
Hisao I'm so- so glad... it makes me happy to know it...
[He could hear the tears in her voice and he frowned a little - he couldn't tell if they were sad tears, happy tears, or some of each. He hoped mostly happy.]
I'm glad it makes you happy, Hanako.
[He smiled, finally.]
It's nice to have things out in the open like that, isn't it?
[She's not sure she can do that. Not to the people who tried to lecture her. She's rightfully resenful of them, and for now she won't do anything of the sort, because she thinks they don't deserve it. People who treat her like a child are not the sort of people she wants to do anything to do with.]
[Aw crap, she's worried that she's done bad things to him- and yeah he's one of the few she feels the need to apologize to... she'll try to remember once this talk is over, at the cost of gaining herself another headache.]
I had a glass of whatever Kurosaki was drinking - It was pretty tasty. He wound up tipping the glass over to make me drink faster, but I just felt a little light headed. Not tipsy or anything.
Actually, it was mostly Jacob. He's a friend of yours, he said? He carried you on his back and I helped to make sure you didn't slip or anything. You fell asleep on the bar.
You should probably thank him - I never could have gotten you home by myself.
She is a lot of fuin, isn't she? She even got me to dance a little!
The reason I ask is because there's a party coming up. The Gods announced it the other day. I was wondering, if you didn't have other plans with other friends, maybe we could go?
.....It's just a suggestion and if you would rather not I completely understand. But I think we could maybe have some fun. If you want. No pressure.
[Oh, that announcement... she remembers it. Hanako couldn't decide whether to go to that party or just stay in the House. Now that Hisao brings it up...]
I don't know... I have Nashi here, I don't think she's suitable to bring at a party. [She won't mention about her own anxiety issues, he knows them already.]
Ahh, that's true. Well, then, we'll have some dinner in the house and maybe play a couple of games of chess, in that case. That will be plenty of fun too.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 02:42 am (UTC)Hanako... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you that night, or any time since. That's the last thing I would ever want to do. I can't lie to you... I have thought in the past that you needed some protection and help. Because you're so shy, and I wanted to be there for you to help you come out of your shell a little. I....
[He stopped, looking away and thinking for a moment.]
...but that really is in the past. That way of thinking was selfish and naive of me, and it was wrong.
[He turned to face the video feed again.]
You're right. You're not weak or a child. And I'm sorry if I ever - EVER - made you feel that way. You're very important to me.... I'm not pretending and I want you to understand that.
You're not worthless. You're worth a lot to me.
Oh also, this might be a chance to invite her to the ball /o/
Date: 2012-04-20 03:35 am (UTC)What he says at the beginning hurts, it pierces her from the inside, but she knew that. She knew that he was being like everyone else, that he, too, thought of her as a weakling. And pretty much his statement only confirms what she'd feared at that time.
But it changed. Overtime, he did change. What he says next makes it true. He's sorry for it, he understands. Hisao understands.
She tries to wipe her tears with her hands, but that proves hard. She can't stop crying.]
I'm sorry Hisao, I--
Hisao I'm so- so glad... it makes me happy to know it...
\o/
Date: 2012-04-20 03:50 am (UTC)I'm glad it makes you happy, Hanako.
[He smiled, finally.]
It's nice to have things out in the open like that, isn't it?
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 03:52 am (UTC)[She reaches for the bedsheet and tries to stop her tears with them.]
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 03:56 am (UTC)[....he's going to omit the part where she sat in his lap unless she asks directly.]
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 03:59 am (UTC)...
Really I did it...?
[No Hisao please don't tell her XD]
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:06 am (UTC)Well, you at least know you can apologize to the people who you said upsetting things to.
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:11 am (UTC)[She's not sure she can do that. Not to the people who tried to lecture her. She's rightfully resenful of them, and for now she won't do anything of the sort, because she thinks they don't deserve it. People who treat her like a child are not the sort of people she wants to do anything to do with.]
... Kurosaki-kun hugged your arm?
[Yeeeeeah what.]
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:16 am (UTC)[Oh.
Ohhhhhhh.
Oh god what.]
... I did...? Uh... what else did I do...?
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:24 am (UTC)But... did I do... anything else to Kurosaki-kun...?
[She sounds terrified...]
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:28 am (UTC)You could ask him - if he remembers much of anything, I'm sure he'd tell you.
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:33 am (UTC)[Aw crap, she's worried that she's done bad things to him- and yeah he's one of the few she feels the need to apologize to... she'll try to remember once this talk is over, at the cost of gaining herself another headache.]
I hope you didn't drink anything while there...
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:39 am (UTC)[A pause.]
Who brought me home...? I don't quite remember. Was it you?
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:41 am (UTC)You should probably thank him - I never could have gotten you home by myself.
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 04:49 am (UTC)[Feeling bad for making him carry her, sob.]
...
[She's not sure about to to say anymore.]
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 01:49 pm (UTC)Well, I wanted to go and do some cooking. I'll bring some of what I make by your room later, alright? If you want it.
no subject
Date: 2012-04-20 08:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-04-21 03:34 am (UTC)So, apart from the drinking and stuff, did you enjoy going out? The parts you do remember, at least?
no subject
Date: 2012-04-21 03:55 am (UTC)Yes, I did. Roxy-san was... kind of fun to hang out with.
no subject
Date: 2012-04-21 04:01 am (UTC)The reason I ask is because there's a party coming up. The Gods announced it the other day. I was wondering, if you didn't have other plans with other friends, maybe we could go?
.....It's just a suggestion and if you would rather not I completely understand. But I think we could maybe have some fun. If you want. No pressure.
no subject
Date: 2012-04-21 04:11 am (UTC)I don't know... I have Nashi here, I don't think she's suitable to bring at a party. [She won't mention about her own anxiety issues, he knows them already.]
no subject
Date: 2012-04-21 04:14 am (UTC)(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From: